Side effects and hating everything

So 2 weeks ago I started my Lupron shots for the endometriosis. And the following day I started taking Norethindrone to help.  Help Hmph!  Let’s see side effects of Lupron….
Abnormal hair growth; abnormal skin sensations; acne; breast pain and tenderness; changes in breast size;changes in bowel function; change in weight; decreased sex drive; dizziness; headache; hot flashes/sweats; mood changes; muscle or joint pain; nausea or vomiting; nervousness; trouble sleeping; vaginal dryness; weakness.
Okay let’s break them down….
Abnormal hair growth~Thankfully so far none that I’ve noticed.
abnormal skin sensations~Nope that’s also a no.
acne~Oh yes my face looks like I’m freaking 14
breast pain and tenderness~Oh yes wearing a bra hurts but not wearing one hurts more.
changes in breast size~None that I’ve noticed yet.
changes in bowel function~Well without getting into too many details a bit
change in weight~I’m to afraid to check but I can imagine
decreased sex drive~What sex drive?
dizziness; headache~Putting these 2 together as I get them together enough that I have to lay down because the light hurts so bad.
hot flashes/sweats~Well it’s been going down in the 30’s and I’ve felt cold but I have sweat pouring off of me so I keep the window opened.
mood changes~Hahahahaha I hate everyone and everything…..This is the Worst symptom.
muscle or joint pain~Check
nausea or vomiting~nausea Oh yes
nervousness~Oh yes maybe this is why I keep feeling like I’m having a panic attack CONSTANTLY!!
trouble sleeping~I’ve always had this so that hasn’t changed.
vaginal dryness~Check
weakness~And Check

So just from the shot out of  17 side effects I have 13!  Freaking 13!!!  Now on to the side effects for the pill….
This medication may cause nausea, vomiting, headache, dizziness, depression, sleeplessness, or irritability.
Wait aren’t those the same damn side effects?? How is this suppose to help me?  They say take it a month and the symptoms should lessen….Haha!  They better….Starting to think they should call the shot the Divorcer.
I am so Pissy and BAH lately it’s not even funny.  I am snapping at everyone and everything oh yes I said thing.  Nothing is safe from me lately.
Just so everyone knows I’ve been reading blogs but not commenting…I’m just not up to it and not up to being nice honestly.
But I am ending here just wanted everyone to know I was still around well at least I’m trying to be.

Every time things look good……

They go BLAH!!  2 weeks ago we went to the Great NYS Fair.  It was a lot of fun as we haven’t been since Caleb was a little baby.
I snapped a few pics was really hard to take them as the place was BUSY!
Here’s Caleb and Maddy enjoying the swings

And the Bumper Cars where Caleb tried his hardest Not to hit anybody.

This is them on the little Roller Coaster

They did ride the adult Roller Coaster which surprised me but I didn’t get any pictures as I had to go on it with them because Maddy was at the height that she could only go on with an adult.  That was the hardest thing for her as she was too short for most of the rides and this little girl Loves rides!  I never knew LOL.  The bigger and faster the more she wants it.  Her last ride was the Ladybugs which she wanted to ride because they were pretty but once they started she realized how boring they were.
 

     Then on 9-9-09 Caleb started the 3rd grade
   Man does he hate his picture taken.
And Elijah started the 5th grade!

And this is just a cute picture of the 3 of them together.

S0 far so good I suppose.  Elijah unfortunately from what all the neighborhood kids say has the meanest teacher in the school.  We shall see how that goes.  Caleb’s been so so about school….More about that later.
And we signed Maddy up for school $110 a month 4 days a week for 2 and a half hours.  Here she is on her first day…
 
She has this face because we were running late and I didn’t have time to put her hair in pigtails so she was mad at me.
Here she is walking to school

And in her class with her name tag which she did save


     Lately Caleb has been awful bouncing off the walls getting mouthy with us…Just not listening and his bus aide said he can’t keep his hands to himself and his teacher said he seems okay but he’s very fidgety in his seat.  So I have no idea what’s going on with him all I know is I’m horribly worried about him.
  And my stupid endometriosis is completely flaring up again…..This means??? I have to get the shots in my bum again for 6 mons to go through menopause then afterwards we’ll discuss a hysterectomy!  I just can’t win.
  And the best part the real best part….Brett’s job cut his pay….Not only his but everyone in the companies.  It was either that or lay people off.  Which I am grateful for that he still has a job but financially we really can’t afford it.  And of Course it happens 3 days after I sign Maddy up for preschool.  I just can’t win.
I am off though feeling frustrated and pissy and pity.

Stephy

Nothing really

Yep nothing much has been going on….Just waiting for summer to end and school to start September 9th.
Elijah came home Thursday and that’s pretty much the same as always.  It’s just been a boring past few days.  Did have something I want to talk about but that’s going to be in my private blog as I don’t want just anyone to find it.
I’ve been doing a whole bunch of nothing and staying up real late and then not wanting to get up in the morning which is no good.
I did find a really cool Internet Radio though….Pandora

What you do is go to there site and you tell them what you like..Like 80’s hair bands…Or Country…Or the name of an artist or song.  This early in the morning I put Celtic Woman as I like nice soft quiet music while I drink my coffee first thing in the morning and Bam they play me a bunch of music related to the Celtic Woman.   But Pandora makes you your own “personal” radio station so anytime you login it takes you right to your station…And from what I’ve seen you can make a few stations.
Best part?? It’s Free!!  Yep that’s right something out there is actually free.  You can choose to pay $35 a year for different options like
A stand alone player right now it plays on a webpage
You can customize it completely to you if you upgrade
Oh and of course no ads….But I’ve been listening to it this morning for almost an hour and the only ads I’ve seen are on the side and that’s with every website now a days so that doesn’t bother me at all.
Ohhhh I just found another thing LOL Listeners to the free Pandora service are limited to a total of 40 hours each month. Only a tiny minority of our listeners will ever reach that limit, but if you're one of them, Pandora One will let you listen as much as you'd like. There's no monthly limit with Pandora One.
So if your only going to listen to it an hour a day.
Either way I really enjoy it and when we have the cash I just might upgrade.
For now it works great.  Sounds crystal clear.  And what else I’ve noticed is right now I’m playing all the different apps on Facebook that I check everyday and the music isn’t skipping and usually that’s my problem with trying to listen to music and having it skip because I’m playing a game.  Oh also LOL I swear I’m not getting paid by them I just like it…Anyways Also it shows you the song the singer and what album it’s on so you can find new artists you enjoy.  Okay I am off LOL no more promoting Pandora Oh and of course you can check the site out HERE. Oh and if you click you don’t like a song they promise to never play it again on your station LOL.
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What an interesting day…..

Well where do I start?  Let’s start with this morning when I was woke up to Maddy crying hysterically and yelling and Caleb yelling I’m telling I’m telling….So before coffee and a cigarette I had to break up a fight.  I screamed asked nicely what was the problem?
Caleb tells me they were playing the Playstation and Maddy died and said “Damn” And then Maddy starts freaking out I didn’t mean to it slipped….So I told Maddy she needed to watch her language and looked at Caleb and said “And how many times have you let a word slip that’s a lot worse then hell when you play video games that I don’t know about?”  He turned around and walked out of the bedroom.  And that was just the start of the day…
Later on in the afternoon I was doing dishes and I saw a kid standing at the end of my driveway taking his helmet off so I walk over towards the window and see him walking around my van…At this point by big fat chubby Bubby cat starts walking towards the kid as he likes to sniff Everything and the kid turned and started walking back towards the road so my cat followed him so the kid ran back to his skateboard.  That’s when I opened the door and asked the kid what he was doing he was selling raffle tickets.  I didn’t buy any but found it hilarious that he ran from my cat.  Now to really see how funny this is…Bubba is like a 15lb fat cat who doesn’t walk he waddles Oh and he limps so he’s not even that fast and he wasn’t hissing and growling…But he did strut around for the rest of the evening thinking he chased the kid away LOL.
  Then on to more fun…..Brett worked late tonight so on his way home he stopped to pick up McDonalds…Now this is the same McDonalds I’ve had to call about countless times…Due to them screwing up our order…Forgetting stuff…Being just downright rude…That’s right I’m one of those horrible customers that does call and complain when people aren’t doing there jobs right.
So anyways Brett gets home and can you guess what happened?  They forgot part of our order.  So I of course call…And I might have been snippy and I asked for a manager and I tell her what happened and right off the bat she was snippy right back to me.  So I asked her if she had a bunch of idiots working for her as this happens EVERYTIME we go there and I mean EVERYTIME and she got a little angry and start going off on me about calling her employees idiots and she said I was the one who bagged that order and I said Oh so your the idiot? I said that’s fine don’t get all rude I will be calling Corporate tomorrow but I just wanted to let you know.  And then she started yelling your banned from ever coming to this McDonalds again your banned.  And I laughed I couldn’t help it and I said ”Really?  Are you going to ask every single customer that comes in there their names to know if it’s me?”  And she responded with “If I have to I will.” 
And then I said that’s fine I’m done arguing I will be calling Corporate tomorrow and she said Your banned don’t ever come in here again and I hung up….Okay for starters…Banned?  From McDonalds?? Really?? LMAO!  2nd she didn’t even ask my name so how is she going to know it’s me?  I’m sorry but that just really amused me.
But I am off.  I have lots more to say but feeling too Blah to type it all now.

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A person's a person, no matter how small

And that person has feelings…Think about that next time you make plans to do something with them and then bow out to do something else something “better” with someone else.  Think about that when someone is commenting you and just trying to be “friends” and you ignore them…Or the next time when your with friends/acquaintances online or in person and someone is there trying to join in the conversation and you completly ignore them…Just remember A person’s a person, no matter how small and that person has feelings.
    Not going to elaborate and not going to get into it…Just ponder over that.

Stephy

Just like

I would just like to announce that I am a very unhappy camper!  I found my first gray hair today!!
Think I’m going to blame it on the kids.  A gray hair!  I’m 28 and I found a gray hair!  I will be going to buy some hair dye tomorrow.  A gray hair can you believe it?? No I’m not vain or anything but a gray hair?  really?  LOL!  This will be remedied tomorrow bought some cheap Burgundy hair dye LOL.
    This entry is going to jump around a lot as I’ve been writing it and adding to it for a few days.
Last week..Or the week before Caleb was outside playing with the neighbor across the street and he brought this home…

He was bound and determined to keep this….I said NO WAY!  Okay no I didn’t say no way I gave some long explanation on why this type of frog had to live outside and it wasn’t a frog you could keep in the house as a pet that you had to get special types of frogs that live indoors in aquariums.  Did I know this for a fact?  Heck no I was making it up as I went along… So of course he was heartbroken but he took it like a trooper and brought it outside and let it go..Just in time too because we had a Huge rain storm.  Then wouldn’t you know the next day when he got off the bus coming from school he found it dead in the driveway!  I felt horrible!  He was a little upset but he got over it.  Thankfully!  No creepy crawly or slimy things as pets in my house.  I’m happy with my cats thank you very much.
   This has been a CRAZY busy week.  I’m going to start with last weekend.  Friday Brett had left for work at 4am Yikes!  Which he had been doing all week but Friday he left early to make Caleb’s therapy session and on the way home he was STARVING.  So we decided to stop at Quaker Steak and Lube.  It’s set up to look like the inside of a car garage it does look pretty cool..I took a pic of the kiddos eating our appetizers.

I personally didn’t think the food was all that great.  And the price was Crazy.  But that’s just my personal opinion.
Saturday Caleb had a friend from school over for awhile and they played and then we headed to the coolest book store EVER!!
Check it out here!  That’s right a buck a book!  And YAY 10 for 12 books.  I of course got 12!  Well sort of Maddy got a Hello Kitty craft book and Brett got a book about Nirvana but I got….
The MacGregors Alan~Grant andd The MacGregor Grooms by Nora Roberts
Lord of Falcon Ridge and The Rebel Bride by Catherine Coulter
My Favorite Witch by Annette Blair
Girls Night Out by Multiple authors
Love in the Present Tense by Catherine Ryan Hyde
Secrets by Danielle Steel
Dead and Loving it by Mary Janice Davidson
Thanks for the Memories by Cecelia Ahern
    And yes I have read a few of these already LOL.  I will get those updated on my book review blog Here.
Then after we got home we decided to have my brother come babysit and Brett and I headed out to see….

Oh yes I got to go see Harry Potter!  I was PUMPED!  I’ll admit I’m a die hard Harry Potter fan and I am so glad we went and saw it.  I will admit I was upset that they added scenes…I Understand movies have to leave some parts out of the book there based on but it’s the adding parts that annoys me.  But still an EXCELLENT movie!  I say if your a Harry Potter fan and you read the books then go see the movie.
   Sunday we headed off to the mall with the kiddos as we felt bad that we don’t get to do that much with them as we don’t always have the money.  And we decided to take them to see a movie..We went and saw

The movie was great we laughed through the whole thing.  We also enjoyed the other 2 movies.  So I’d say go see it.  The kids enjoyed it Brett and I enjoyed it so that’s a plus.  After the movie we roamed around the mall where Maddy got 3 new pairs of earrings.  Here she is showing off her puppy ones.

She also got a matching pair that are pink but cats and then a pair of black and white kitty earrings.  She’s obsessed with animals so she was pumped and at Claire’s there buy 2 get 1 free so she was happy to be able to get all 3 of the ones she liked. 
After the mall Brett commented on being concerned about me because I hadn’t been eating much but I just wasn’t hungry and I really wasn’t feeling good.  Well later that night I started just not feeling good and I was really tired and had a pounding headache so Brett starts googling…The verdict?? I was dehydrated!  Dehydrated!  I Rarely ever drink water I tend to stick to coffee and whatever sounds good later on.  But to make Brett feel better Monday I drank water ALL day and sure enough after my 6th-7th bottle I started feeling better.  So with it being hot everywhere Please remember to drink lots of water.  I’ve never been dehydrated before but I can tell you this I will remember to drink water now.
     This week was just a long boring week.  Caleb went to 1 of his friends house Monday and Wednesday he had that friend here.  It’s been great him having a friend.  Poor Brett’s been working MANY hours leaving here at 4am and not getting home till 5-6 some nights as late as 7 or 8.  And it’s been sticky and muggy out.  My friend Steph and I did head back to the book store on Friday and I got more books LOL.  Yep 12 more listed below.
Boy meets Girl by Meg Cabot
Midnight Bayou~The Villa~Three Fates all by Nora Roberts
Late Night Talking by Leslie Schnur
A Perfect Divorce by Avery Corman
Lucky Streak by Carly Phillips
Reading David by Lissa Weinstein
Babes in Captivity by Pamela Redmond Satran
A Wedding in December by Anita Shreve
Within Arms reach by Ann Napolitano
Quivers a Life by Robin Quivers Which is more for Brett as he Loves Howard Stern but I’ll read it too LOL
  Yeah I have enough books to last me awhile.  Not to mention my friend Steph brought me 15 more books of hers to borrow.
So I’ll be busy for awhile.  And considering Caleb’s last day of Summer School is Friday I’m not to sure what’s going to be going on. 
And some random pics…
This is little Miss Kiki on her Favorite sleeping place

Yep who would have thought the Cable box was a comfortable place to sleep?  Only problem is she tends to stand up and clean herself and watch us not realizing that were not watching her were trying to watch tv LOL.
And just a pic Maddy took of me doing you guessed it reading one of the new books I got LOL.
My eyes always come out horrible in pics….And of course I need my eyebrows done LOL.
Brett was teasing me saying you can see my gray hair..I don’t think you can LOL.

But whew this was a lot longer then I expected…I need to stop waiting so long before I blog.
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I’m here

I’m still here.  I’ve had some stuff on my mind that I blogged about privately because I didn’t want just anybody finding it.  If your interested in reading I can give you access just let me know.
I also updated by book reviews. 
Going to try and get another entry out later today or tomorrow.
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